.Letter To Myself (Then& Now).

okay so I found this letter I wrote to myself when I 18 years old...I wasn't suppose to read this until I was married but I figured I might as well share the letter I wrote to myself..Its not that long but its quite interesting...I guess..lets see if anything has changed since this letter...so here it goes

Dear Tiffany,
Man 18 big step for you. Well you've had your share of drama. I can only tell you that as you get older, more drama will come but you'll be able to handle it better.
By the time you'll read this you will be having a successful career in a finance field and writing books on the side. You'll be having your own place. Hopefully Sarah and Philiana will still be your close friends. Well your chance of marrying Mario are slim but hopefully you'll meet someone similar to him.
Marriage? Maybe you'll be ready then but definitely not now. Kids? still thinking on it. Just keep telling yourself that you want a boy (lol). You want to marry a Christain, for one, handsome, smart, well groomed, a good career, can cook, clean, a clean record (lol), taller than me, funny, romantic, good hygiene, and respects me and my family. Which is why Mario is so perfect(lol). I'm playing. Don't be in no rush to search for him. Let him come to you.
Family? Hopefully dad will still be alive and have a better/father daughter relationship. As for Brittany, she will always be your best friend. hopefully you and mom will be on the same page as far as trust is concerned. I'm sure you'll still feel okay about dad being married to Penny even though you don't right now.
Before this letter is over, make sure you don't let no one stop you from achieving your dreams. You miss dancing so take some classes. You have the drive. Speaking of drive, get your license huny because you can't keep relying on mom, dad , and the bus to take you your destination.
Oh yeah you want a dogs, a Rottweiler name Boxer and a Yorkshire named...well something that will fit into this personality. (lol) So take care and love yourself cause YOU KNOW YOU LOOK GOOD!!!!
-Tiffany Nicole Wilson


That was then and lets see what has changed from that letter...
Now at age 21 going on 22...well I'm still far from achieving my goals, struggling more than ever if you ask me...I don't really hang with Philiana or Sarah like that..not like I use to..college changes people so everyone is focused on there own priorities which is fine, we only keep in touch on FB since we don't text each other either...but then again I'm always to myself so its rare that I'm hanging out with anyone..mostly because I still don't have my own car yet..(sighs)
I still like Mario..but I'm in love with Sammie..yes he can soo marry me lol jk I know it wont happen but its just the thought that counts right???
hmm me and my dad still don't have a father/daughter relationship and quite frankly I'm over it...I still hate my step mom...me and my sis are still close and she is still like my best friend despite our sibling rivalry we'll have from time to time....I'm dating now..so far its alright, we have our lil disputes but I guess that mean our relationship is normal...hopefully our relationship can resume strong and hopefully this will be the last one because I don't think I cant deal with another relationship really, I'm getting older not younger. As far as kids I still want only BOYS...marriage? is such a tuff thing to come by since I don't really have a marriage to look up to like that..I just know I don't want a marriage like my step mom and dad have cause to me that's not a marriage...me and my mom have been working on our relationship..I miss her more than anything since we don't live together....but hopefully good things will come my way by the end of this year because I swear I've been going through it and back and sometimes Idk where to turn to these days...I might consider therapy classes..