.A Daughters Cry.

havent written a poem in so long...so here it goes...
=.A Daughters Cry.=

Figured its time I do a intervention
cause visiting a shrink its just appointments I'll be missin
so I pull out my paper and pen
and let my mind flow
as my pen goes
so folks can stop and listen
and understand my cry
everyday its a struggle
wit my emotions in a bubble
ready to pop but my pride makes it stop
and stay a float
hard being the oldest
keepin my head up and tryin to stay focus
leadin my example so my lil sis wont struggle like me
so I'm her shoulder to cry on as time goes on
and live to see another day
dealin with recession
put my family in depression
thankful my job
but my heart still in depression
cause it hit me so hard
than tryna learn a hard lesson
cause my mind is always worryin always wonderin
prayin for my mother
so she can stop strugglin
hopin she can get a job
so the money can start rollin
and she gain back what she lost
i can see it in her eyes
shes tryin hold up her pride
cause deep down inside she wanna cry
cause shes sick n tired like im sick n tired
she tells me that im the strongest
cause i've held her and my sister down
for the longest
makin sure my mom had her bills paid
makin sure my sister had money to make sure she get through the day
never held back my tongue
cause i have no where else to run to
cant run to my father cause he's to busy
keepin the devil satisfied
cause she wanna listen
she's just want us gone
best believe we dont wanna be here either
so she continues to bash us
makin us feel like shit
but i have to ignore it
cause my pride wont let me show it
but behind closed doors I cry
not just any cry
but this a daughters cry
I only cry alone
cry for mercy
cry for the pain
cry because I have no shoulder to lean on
cry because I'm hurt
but mostly I cry because I dont kno how to be strong no more