Father/Daugther Relationship

hmmm everybody knows that saying...'mommas boy" and "daddy's girl"...well in this case I'm not a "daddy's girl" or a "mommas girl" either...i just remain to myself...all through out my life..my parents have been divorced...i only saw my dad every other weekend and him and my mom would divide up the holidays and etc...so yeah growning up was pretty harsh...i NEVER dicussed that seein my parents divorced bother me so much....i ALWAYS kept my feelings in because i had a mother who would just tell me to "man up" and stop "crying" so the only time i was allowed to express my anger was out in the public or behind closed doors....as for my father, he was never really ready to have kids, maybe so but just wasnt expecting two girls so its like..."hmm now how do i do this"... so really my father and I never bonded what so ever..we never really talked what so ever... I never learned about how men really are from him...I learned on my own the hard which was to experiment with all types of guys that were out there and I've dealt with some SERIOUS payback from it all...now that I'm actually living with my dad its just sickening how much we still dont talk...its not that i dont try, he just dont wanna listen or hear what i have to say...he doesnt care that im just as hurt as he is(from me fuckin up in the past), only thing he cares about is braggin rights to his friends and fam and right now he has NOTHIN to brag about.....I've told myself that once I eventually manage to get back on my own two feet that I will cut off all connections with this man...because really he just dont try hard enough...dont think that giving me money to pay for books from school was enough or to buy me that lil dress that I wanted is good enough..dont get me wrong im ever so grateful that you let us(my sister and I) have a roof over our heads after my mom lost everything...but its sad that your own wife dont want us here...im not even sorry that u married her because thats what u get...and she dont want u to have a relationship with your kids just like how her own daughter dont have a relationship with her own father.....I want my father..someone thats like my lil role dog or ace man cun to that I should be able to talk to him about men to but unfortunately due to the fact that your married and ur old ass is stuck in this mentality of yours is that "ive done so much for u and aint get shit back in returned" bullshit...honestly haven't done shit for me sad to say..my mother has done more and sacrificed more for me and if anything she has been the father u have never been....sadily but surely...honestly its 21 years too late for you to try to act like the father u should have been...